昨晚接到TYY的電話, 說打電話的時候她正在看FTV的鏘鏘三人行春節特別版. 她一個人在深圳過年, 我一個人在廣州過年, 之前曾經邀請她到廣州來一起過年, 她考慮幾天之后說身體不好, 不來了.
認識她是01年在深圳常駐時一次偶然的機會, 之後去過幾次她家過夜, 再之後就沒有之後了. 感覺深圳就是這樣, 每個人都在忙碌并迷茫著, 很多事情既沒有開始, 也沒有結束.
02年離開深圳之後換了號碼就再也沒有和她聯系, 直到半個月前翻看電話簿, 給她打了電話. 既不知道為甚麼6年了都沒有和她聯系, 也不知道為甚麼6年後要打那個電話.
電話里, 她說自己還沒有結婚, 而我也還沒有再婚, 又在電話里, 她說05年都差點結婚了, 結果跟那個男的fight了起來, 婚事告吹.
"追我是要狂轟濫炸的", 她說, "那時候你對我也沒有甚麼表示", 她還說.
關于她之前的狀況, 我知道一些, 不知道一些, 但, 就在她說這句話的時候, 我頗為想問她:"你以為你是誰?", 還頗為想告訴她:"抱歉, 你不是我想要的."
TYY told that she was watching the Dou talk show on phoenix tv when she made that call. both of us are living alone during the new year holiday, one in shenzhen and the other in guangzhou though. she said she was not feeling good and couldn't come for guangzhou after a few days when I suggested that celibrating the new year together in guangzhou.
I slept with her for a few times after meeting her by a chance in shenzhen in 2001, and nothing happened after those days. seems it was the shenzhen way that an individual was busy on whatever confusedly and from time to time there was no a beginning and an end.
since I left shenhzen in 2002 and had the mobile number changed, havn't contacted her until I checked out the address book half month ago. I have no idea either why I didn't do that in 6 years or why made that call after 6 years long.
I havn't got married again, and she said she was not married yet on the call. last night, she said she almost got married in 2005 but the wedding was canceled because they fought.
"got to be crazy if want to chase after me", she said, "you didn't mention anything at that time", she also said.
I did know something about her previous story. however, I was about to say "who do you think you are" to her when she was saying that. further more, "sorry, you are not the one who I want to have"